Holidays are fast upon us and this is the time of year I get the most anxious. Freelance slows down, but the bills stack up faster. It takes months to catch up and this year we’re feeling the bite a lot more. I get anxious, snappy, mopey, and so forth.
This year, however, despite all of this, I can at least beat back the blues a bit by looking at Jack and knowing… it’s all worth it. Just look at this kid.
When he gets fussy or insists on attention when I have work to do, it can be a little frustrating. Every hour he takes away from my morning shift of work means an hour added to my evening shift. Then there is the late night for me followed by an early morning feeding for him, but when the kid looks at me… with the goofy grin, the happy feet kicking, the arms reaching out…
… yeah, it’s all worth it.
When it’s time for a nap, and he’s not ready to sleep. Or maybe he is ready to sleep and we make eye contact before I close my eyes–which means there will be no sleep yet, but more conversations, songs, playing and so forth, it means dad gets a bit tired. But you know what?
It’s all worth it.
I really can’t complain. Actually, it’s impossible to complain. We have a sweet kid with a sweet temperament. He’s a joy to behold and looking at him always improves my mood. I could feel tired, anxious, overworked, or whatever–but that all dissolves as soon as he smiles at me.
It’s all so very worth it. I love this kid to pieces.
That’s all I really had to say today.
Cheers!
